Dream Journal night vers.
06/05/2026
I was eating a candy, specifically a fuzzy peach ring. I had half woken up and my hand was asleep and numb. I tried to eat the candy, but instead I was biting my finger, but I didn't realize for a while because my hand was asleep. This is probably the stupidest one.
22/04/2026
J. and I at school, but more fascist-y and evil. We stormed the student union building with cameras and guns, searching for evil people in charge. We worked our way through the building. The last guy was in some kind of hole? We drowned him and ran away.
18/04/2026
There was a water tunnel thing that kept going down and down and smaller and smaller in a staircase/switchback fashion. For some reason needed to see the bottom but as far as I knew it went on forever. Felt the depths and importance of it in my bones. I kept goinging through the dark, for some reason I always fit but I was scared not just that I couldn't make it back/would get stuck, but that I would just keep going down forever. I want deeply to keep going down, down, down. weird feeling dream1
27/09/2024
A queer, environmentalist winnie-the-pooh retelling2
21/08/2024
pt. 1: At the grocery store. Looked at food for a while but wanted to get classes checked. There were weird cleaning pods you had to use to get ready. Glasses place then became rooms where you could get frozen (dead?). I ended up going into one for a few minutes, then the dream ended. One of those weird feeling1 dreams
Carlie Rae Jepson? The call me maybe one?
Got one half of a snake bite piercing
30/07/2024
Had gotten top surgery, out topless on a run. The lack of the weight of breasts knocking around as I ran, the best gender euphoria.
day vers.3
22/03/2024
Thinking about top surgery. About putting on a shirt without a bra and having the fabric swish against my chest. About someone I love resting their head against my flat chest.
footnotes
1: weird feeling dream:
The kind of dark, twisted dream that sticks with you, a heavy but beautiful weight that you carry throughout the day. The feeling of being dragged back towards it is so intense that you think maybe another version of you is still within that world. It's strangely addicting, too - observe as you become scared of the darkness within yourself that enjoys it.
Often for me this occurs in my dreams about dying. I have no idea why they bring me such a heavy sense of peace, but I can only hope that real death is just as kind to me. Perhaps it will be like pulling a weighted blanket over you, held down so you can't run away.
Disclaimer timeee: I am very mentally ok right now I promise I know this sounds dark. Please reach out to someone if you are feeling in a bad place!!!
2: winnie-the-pooh retelling:
I have no recollection of this dream, just found it scrawled in an old journal, but this sounds cool af - please tell me more, past me!
3: daydreams
The lack of content here makes me nostalgic for my childhood. I miss daydreaming like I used to, before having unrestricted access to devices that prevent any boredom before it can begin, much less morph into the creative state I used to spend hours in.